I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember, there are people who care about you and want to support you.
If you're in immediate danger or need someone to talk to right now, please consider reaching out to a crisis hotline or emergency services in your country. They can provide the help and support you need.